The final nail is in the coffin, so to speak. It's so good to have things put to rest. Praise the Lord for allowing me to see and realize the truth of the matter. I never have to go back again. It is done! Freedom is what the Lord wants to give each of us. Freedom from ourselves, our old man, our sin, our constant wavering of faith. You have to be willing to have that one foot plucked out of this world, cause you can't be in two places at once. And you certainly cannot serve two masters.

Isaiah 43:18-19
Do not call to mind the former things, or ponder things of the past. Behold, I will do something new, now it spring forth; will you not be aware of it? I will even make a roadway in the wilderness, rivers in the desert.

oh, how I want to be aware and see these new things!