It's been a beeautiful Sunday...so lovely to wake up to the sun, you look out and see that everything is sugar-coated w/ snow. "It's beginning to look a lot like Christmas! la la la la la...." hehhe, don't mind my singing. A new day with a promise of hope. God is so good to us, so faithful. His plan for us is perfect. = )
I went home for a whirlwind visit this Friday to visit my mom. She looked tired, and thinned out, but she was in a good mood, eating and enjoying the company of her visitors. She should be leaving the hospital tomorrow. Yay! There has been an over-whelming show of love and support from my home church, family, friends, etc. I thank you for your prayers and support. = D

Praise the Lord for answering all our prayers! My mom's wound is closed and doesn't have to stay in intensive care anymore. Just a few more days to heal up, and she'll be A-okay. Hallelujah!

update on my mom: she was transferred to intensive care today, cuz there's still a small wound that they can't close up. if it doesn't close up tonight, she'll be transferred to St. Michael's tomorrow... cuz there's a specialist there that can help. right now they're giving her blood transfusions. My dad just said that there's a small hole in the blood vessel that didn't close up, so blood is still seeping out of it. They haven't operated on her... yet. right now they inserted clips or something to try and stop the blood from flowing out. They'll decide whether to transfer her tomorrow. Her condition has gotten more serious, but I have faith in the Lord that He'll carry her thru this. Thank you for your prayers.

Today was my long, frustrating day at the ministry of transporation. They are evil. Yes, I did get my G today, but it wasn’t really worth it. Well, as some of you may know, I had my highway road test today. Formally termed the G2 exit test. My dad and I got up bright and early and went for my morning test. Everything seemed fine up until my test. The examiner came into my CRV and asked me a couple of questions, and asked if I was doing my G2 road test. I said yes. So we hit the road, and after a couple of minutes, I become more and more puzzled as I am asked to do and up-hill park, parallel park etc. When we start heading back to the station, I could help but ask, “why aren’t we going to the highway?” He simply said, cuz this isn’t the test you’re doing. I become shocked and scared. After I parked, he congratulates me that I had passed my G2 road test. SO we shared some words as I try to figure out what went wrong. He knows I have my G2 already, since it says so on my licence, but yet he continued to do the G1 exit test with me! I wanted to cry at that point b/c I’ve tried to get this over with since the spring, and it seemed like he was just cruel and insensitive. He said to talk it over at the desk w/ the ppl, cuz he was just given the form and did his job. He said, If it’s any consolation, you pretty much on perfect on this test. I was like, “big whoop! I have the G2 already!” Madly in tears, I stormed back and asked to speak with the supervisor, and apparently, it was a big misunderstanding, I went in for the G2 exit test, and the computer thought I was there for the G1 exit test, and so everything followed. Apparently, you can do what I did and extend your G2 licence for another 5 years. So I’m not as mad at the first examiner, but he was still insensitive at my situation. I still don’t know who’s fault it is, but the ministry is willing to take the blame for the error. So I had to shell out another $75 to wait and see if I could get tested for real this time on the same day. Finally, by noon time, a spot was freed up and I hit the road again with a nicer examiner. I did fine, but the road conditions weren’t so hot, as it started pouring when I was on the highway. Through it all, I forget how many lines I’ve stood in today, waiting to talk to the wrong person etc. and my dad was waiting for me the whole time, missing his appointment, and losing a business sale or what not. Grrr…….not a fun day for the Hsu’s. Today’s occurance solidified our belief that Canadian work ethics are sub-par, and that ppl are too slow, and mess up way too often. The plus side was that I got to spend the whole morning and afternoon w/ my dad, and we had some good conversations.
My mom went for some check up at the hospital today as well, but something happened, I don’t know the details, but she’ll be staying over-night there as they continue to observe her. Please pray for her, as I’m guessing that her body can’t really wait till Dec. 3 for the operation.

Many thoughts bombard me every waking moment. I've been thinking of our society as a whole and all the evil in it. With gay marriages being legal now, I'm starting to see Toronto as the modern-day Sodom or Gommorah. Wondering how angered, disgusted, saddened our Heavenly Father is at this nation. I'm even half-expecting God's wrath in some way, and that sucks b/c we have already been set free from our sinful nature. Why do we go on in sin? I'm not talking about homosexuality, but everything else. If we are true Christians, that means we are dead. We are dead to our old selves, and we have been resurrected w/ Christ within us. We have to die to our sinful nature, so that Christ may be alive in us! Since Christ is in us, and we desire to give up ourselves, why do we STILL sin? This is a very good question, and I don't have the answer, but I feel that when we still sin as Christians, it's b/c that part hasn't been surrendered to God yet. We can't expect the Holy Spirit to come into our lives, and make us perfect and holy instantly. A friend shared that "everyday is like an exercise for our Christian walk". We have to let and want the Spirit to gain ground in our lives daily, and if we need to, even tell ourselves that we are dead to our sinful nature, and we can choose not to sin, for we have been right by grace.

HAPPY BELATED 20th BIRTHDAY TO MY "BEAN"!! =D Miss you lots.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY to my lil sis Grace! Wow, can't believe you're 14 now. Hope you'll be wiser and smarter than I was when I was 14. (I've done my share of stupid things)

HAPPY 20th BIRTHDAY TO MY BEST FRIEND OF 13 YEARS!!! CHEERS HANNAHNAH. =D

Yay! I survived what Dorcas dubs as 'die-day' as to her 'die-week'. These two days has been long and enduring. Whew. Still in one piece. Had a presentation yesterday, didn't go as smoothly as planned, but we were first to go in our class, so we got off the easiest. Then I had an anatomy exam today worth 35% (more than our upcoming final!) I could not bring myself to study for it over the weekend back at home or some reason. There's just always 'something' else you'd rather do. So I had 2 days to cram as much as I could for that, and it turned out okay. Feeling tired and woosey though, may be the caffiene effects, cuz I don't drink coffee normally, hehhe. Fought off every feeling of drifting to sleep w/ candy, a pinch in the face and a flick of the arm. But I feel confident that I can maybe pull my mark up to the 80s. I get to sleep 10 hrs tonight! Woohoo...
Hannah's coming into visit on Sat. Can't wait! = D

A cute kitten just ran into our house. I've seen her before, a grey and white cat that is very lovable and friendly. I know her owners live on my street, but she never seems to go home. My roommate came home and starting yelling, I run up and see her pointing to the cat in our living room. My other roommates petted her, while I poured some milk on a dish to lure her out. It worked, but she sat in our porch for a while, hoping for us to attend to her. It's so adorable...can't wait to hug and squeeze my own kitties tomorrow!
Lol. So funny. My next door neighbour just knocked and asked if we owned a cat that just ran into their home! Seems like this lil' kitty is making its way around the block. j/k. But we know she has an owner, so we had to let her out.

I realize that I think too much before I sleep. Maybe that's why it takes me 1/2 hr to 45 min to fall asleep every night. Maybe it's also the cause of my weird and vivid dreams. I didn't sleep well last night, as I slepted in a tense position, cluching my pillow...I was dreaming that I was a figure skater (heheh, go figure!) that was coerced by this serial killer to kill ppl for him! I was so afraid of him, but he had this power over me, with this threatening and menacing behaviour. He hid all these weapons under my bed, coming into my room somehow whenever he wished. I felt so helpless and afraid, but I couldn't go to the police somehow. I was so freaking scary. I managed to tell the secret to my cousins, friends, and uncles....and they all came to try to save me, and take out this criminal. But their guns were weak compared to his sniper...and I was so afraid of seeing one of them getting shot. Luckily, I woke up before the battle began. *whew* I don't know why, but I seem to have all these dark and evil dreams. Sometimes quite disturbing too, as I usually wake up in cold sweat or tears after experiencing something terrible happening to a loved one.

the best compliments are random ones...the ones you don't expect.

I've been feeling a tad unusual lately. People say to me, "you seem pretty out of it" when I get totally lost a conversation. I've been talking to ppl on the phone thinking they were someone else. I forget my friend's program, even tho she's in my program. I was also trying to convince another that I was born in 1983, but I'm turning 20. I thought I was 19 for the past little while. I've been misunderstanding and miscommunicating with a few ppl. This is starting to scare me. Am I becoming disoriented? What's causing this? And could it be pernament? I certainly hope not. If something does happen to me in the near future, help me remember that these were the symptoms!
Dazed and Confused

What a nice warm day....but it's Nov. 1! I hope winter can hold out a bit longer. Biz exam was today...man, 4 hrs go by quickly when you're writing mad. Wasn't as bad as I expected, but it was tiring.

"Come unto me, all who are weak, weary and heavy laden;
Gentle am I, humble in heart, and you shall find rest for your soul."
Matthew 11