I had a wonderfully scary dream last night. I often dream quite vividly, and can remember the sights, smells, sounds, and emotions I go through in each. Can dreams be God-given, or just the inner-workings of our subconscious? It definitely can be either, or both...but as Turk would say (in Scrubs) "my dreams are freaky...Cirque Du Soleil freaky!"

This dream brought back someone I had forgotten 7 yrs ago. What's disturbing is that I thought in my head, and felt in my heart that I've dealt with it all, and have never looked back in regret. Now it's afresh in my mind, as I wonder if I will or could revert back to my old self. Cuz I sure did in that dream. *shudder*

It says in 1 Cor 10:13-14 No temptation has overtaken you but such as is common to man; and God is faithful, who will not allow you to be tempted beyond what you are able, but with the temptation will provide the way of escape also, so that you will be able to endure it.

There is fear in me that somehow I will settle, and will stop abiding in Him. I know its not our own doing that we have this personal relationship with our Father through Christ. This self-hood thing sucks...need to keep reminding myself that I am free, especially from me.