Looking forward to...

-Arthur's visit
-ACF retreat
-Thanksgiving weekend...being with my family...eating three turkeys.
-letting go...being okay with things not being okay
-helping to plan K+K's wedding...did I hear 'wedding expo'?
-mid-terms...I'm serious! This nerd's all ready for Weldon.
-researching possibilities in clinical nutrition...so exciting! If only I had time this term to volunteer at St. Joseph's...but come next term....*sly grin* yay!

I've got minimal defences up against that weird hacking/phlegmy cold infection going on...but I refuse to get sick...even tho I'm falling asleep in class with a coffee in my hand, stress levels swinging up, and really should intake on more vit. C. No more hugs Cora!

A ballad by Oscar Wilde:

I never saw sad men who looked with such a wistful eye
Upon that little tent of blue we prisoners call the sky,
And at every careless cloud that passed in happy freedom by.

And all the woe that moved him so that gave that bitter cry;
And the wild regrets and bloody sweats, none knew so well as I:
For he who lives more lives than one, more deaths than one must die...

And every human heart that breaks in prison cell or yard,
Is as that broken box that gave its treasure to the Lord,
And filled the unclean leper's house with the scent of costliest nard.

Ah! Happy day they whose hearts can break and peace and pardon win!
How else may man make straight his plan and cleanse his soul from Sin?
How else but through a broken heart may Lord Christ enter in?

I don't understand...

Many times in life we become lost and confused amidst all the commotion. And I have to admit that I don't understand why certain things happen. This is where trust in the Lord comes in...and we need to plant ourselves on the foundation that is Jesus Christ. That way we won't move or fall apart when we get hit...and believe me, we'll get hit. Some harder than others, but being a Christian definitely does not make us immune to the pain and suffering in this world.

Note to lil sis: you're NOT alone, and you don't have to feel hopeless. We CAN do something for our family, and pray that they will see light again someday. I'm sorry for not being there...you need a hug? *HUG* I need one too. heh. Miss you lots, and keep your chin up. His will will be done as we seek after Him. Give Char a hug for me too. I hope she's okay. No need to act awkward...be yourself, and love on her. We will be strong and faithful for our family. heheh. Don't be fooled by my words, I need to keep reminding myself of this everyday too. If you must cry, cry to the Lord for forgiveness and mercy on our household. I am doing the same.

A midsummer's ice cream

I'm stuck at the Brescia Library for 2 hours as I'm awaiting my next class...just writing abstracts for some nutrition articles...and oh man! I need me some chocolate....*sniff* The hot chocolate and nutella sandwich I already had today simply did not suffice my craving. lol...

This is bad. I guess I shouldn't have glossed over this gourmet desserts magazine which described every tantalizing detail of this new dessert at some hotel called the "chocolate bento box". And in this bento box contains a beautiful chocolate-coffee souffle, white chocolate creme-brule, cocoa-liquor shot, and cocoa-raspberry truffle....it's too much!

I have a ton of candy on me...like strawberry and green apple mentos, meiji jelly beans, and some fizzy stuff. But it's not the same as my dark, sweet, velvety delights. *sigh*

Oh yeah....HAPPY BIRTHDAY LILLIEBABIE! see you in the car.. ;o)

I feel like I'm watching a day-time soap opera when I look at my mom's family. Where is the love, the compassion, the justice...and is He present in the lives of my supposed 'Christian' relatives?

Accusation. pain. hurt. tension. sorrow. anger. bitterness. remorse.

But I want healing. Holy Spirit. conviction. prayer. justice. repentance. hope. There is a way...and I have to learn to trust Him throughout all the ups and downs. Family can bring so much joy, and even so much pain. Everything happens for a reason, and I realize that I'm living and experiencing life.

What role should I play as part of the 3rd generation? It hurts to see so much going on...and I almost want to avoid looking. But I know that's not what I'm called to do...

cora, lil and I with the newlyweds. :o) 

wedded bliss...congrats Jasper and Darana!

A new beginning

. . . bringing every thought into captivity to the obedience of Christ . . .
—2 Corinthians 10:5